As Lisa Hochstein led by her ongoing divorce from Lenny Hochsteinshe mentally prepares to relive their drama on The Real Housewives of Miami.
“I’m terrified because I didn’t expect it, and I was in a mess. For example, I couldn’t control my emotions,” Lisa (40) exclusively said. Us Weekly at BravoCon 2022 on Friday, October 14. “When viewers tune in, they’ll see that I was just… I wasn’t myself. Nobody recognized me. He didn’t recognize me.”
She added: “I wanted to call so many times, you know? And then [because of] my children and, like, I didn’t want to give so much to myself [but] I signed up for the show. And it is what it is, and he did it to me [while I was filming] show.”
Us previously confirmed in May that the two had separated after nearly 13 years of marriage.
“Lisa and I are divorcing. I denied it a few weeks ago because I am trying to protect my family during this process. It is true that I see Katharina [Mazepa] but none of this happened until the divorce decision was made,” Lenny, 56, said in a statement at the time, denying speculation about affairs. “This is a very difficult time and I would ask for some privacy so that we can take the best care of our children who mean the world to us.”
The Bravo star – who shares son Logan, six, and daughter Ella, two, with the plastic surgeon – has since focused on treatment and co-parenting.
“The past few months have been better. Every day is getting better. Time heals everything,” said Lisa Us while attending a convention in New York. “[I’m] focusing on my children [and] trying to stay busy. … I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I didn’t think I could be happy again and I’m starting to get my smile back.”
While the models are getting their groove back, she admitted that her relationship with Lenny has its challenges.
“It’s hot and cold because we’re not divorced yet, [and] from what I hear from people who are divorced, it’s just going to be like that,” she said Friday. “And I really hope that one day we’ll be okay – especially for the kids – and I don’t want to be enemies with him.”
The reality TV personality continued: “I have so much anger and resentment, but like any divorce, it’s never smooth sailing. So that one day, hopefully after enough time has passed, I hope for the sake of the kids that we’re in a better place.”
The Real Housewives of Miami returns for Season 5 on December 8 on the Peacock.
With reporting by Christina Garibaldi